2nd anniverisry

Its been awhile since I've written, but today is Drake's 2nd birthday. The fact that he's not here to celebrate it doesn't make it less so. He is still very much in my heart and on my mind this special day.

My last couple of posts talked about my pregnancy, I am overwhelmed with gratitude that I have a healthy baby boy. He hasn't taken the place of my dear Drake. I had thought that perhaps I would not notice this anniversary as much now that my arms are not empty. That is not the case. My heart still aches for the little boy that I never got the chance to hear cry, laugh, or giggle.

I have stopped wondering about what he would have looked like! All three of my living boys look exactly alike. Its amazing to see their baby pictures and only be able to tell them apart be looking at what they are wearing and what else is in the pictures. I am convinced that Drake would look just like his brothers!

I don't think I am hurting the way have in the past, no correction I know I am not hurting the way I have in the past. All I have to do is read previous post to see how far I have come!

I'm moving forward but I now know that I will always (or for as long as I am on this earth) miss my son!