Keep Moving Forward

I stopped today to think about my little boy. I know that he is happier were he is. He doesn't have to deal with the crud that is on this earth. I also know that he is aware of me. He can see me and doesn't want me to be sad. Its hard at times. I miss him so much. I wish at times that we could just have a little talk. I could hear his sweet voice and I could tell him how much I miss and love him! As I write this I don't think just talking to him would be enough. I want to hold him and hug him and smell his sweet head. Who am I trying to kid, I want him here! I know that's selfish of me but I don't care right now! I want to be with him, I want to see him with his brothers and sister. I find it hard on cold winter days like today not to get a little down.

I know that I have to keep moving forward. One step, one breath, one moment, one day at a time. And I will